my memories
Friday, July 15, 2005
i don't care what happens yesterday
its suppsed to be my history
i can only learn from my mistakes
and make sure i won't repest it in my future
i'm not gonna be sad
i'll be happy cos you are not in my life anymore
i won't cry a tear for this
i will move on and be strong
you can change your life ; if you wanna
you can change your clothes ; if you wanna
if you change your mind
well, that's the way it goes
but i'm gonna keep your jeans
and your old black hat - cause i wanna
they look good on me
you're never gonna get them back
at least not today, not today, not today
cause
if it's over, let it go
come tomorrow it will seem
so yesterday, so yesterday
i'm just a bird that's already flown away
laugh it off, let it go and
when you wake up it will seem
so yesterday, so yeasterday
haven't you heard that i'm gonna be okay
you can say you're bored - if you wanna
you can act real tough - if you wanna
you can say you're torn
but i've heard enough
thank you..you made my mind up for me
when yo started to ignore me
do you see a single tear
it isn't gonna happen here
at least not today, not today, today
cos
if you're over me, i'm already over you
if it's all been done, what is left to do
how can you hang up if the line is dead
if you wanna walk, i'm a step ahead
if you're moving on, i'm already gone
if the lights is off then it isn't on
at least not today...
`` it seems so yesterday ``
9:21:00 AM
stop and think;
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
A TALK WITH MY CELL LEADER [100exact words]
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
i wonder if u wan me as yr member
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
y?
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
coz u seem 2 b TOO BUSY TO TALK 2 MOI
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
HAIZ
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
BUSY
Being
Under
Satan
Yeah
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
i'll go sumwhr elz
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
if u dun wan mi
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
are you very free?
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
yupx
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
i'm 2 free in fact
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
HONESTLY,do u wan me as YOUR MEMBER
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
if NOt, i HAD TO LEAVE W125
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
tell me ASAP
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
i dun wanna be NEGLECTED
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
no one is neglecting you.
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
but i FEEL THAT WAY
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
all are BUSY PLS
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
im left ALONE
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
NOT REALLY ALONE
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
i stil hav GOD
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
Grace, get this right. we are busy, not because we are under Satan. but we are all fulfilling our purposes.
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
an idle mind/hand is the devil's workshop. heard this before?
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
yupx
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
itz t as if I DONT READ BIBLE
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
daily
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
we are not busy for nothing. we are urgent about everything.
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
what's most urgent to you today?
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
but cant spare FIVE MINS
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
are you sure you only want 5 mins.
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
my n-Xtian frens r beta in dis area
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
u SO FREAKING BUSY
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
5 MINS IS
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
i juz wanna 2x check
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
there are 20 people in the CG, 18000 people in the church. if I laze around, it is fair to the others?
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
quite true
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
mayb i talk 2 ppl like
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
BRO AARON, SAM
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
how long have you been a CHristian?
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
u mean born again
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
yes
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
since i STEPPED MY FEET INTO CHC
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
yupz
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
that's how long?
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
how many months, years?
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
lemme tink
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
july 2 3 - still counting
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
almoz 2 yrs
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
2 years!!!! and you are still behaving like you just came to church!
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
pls
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
friend, move on!!
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
I HAVE MY PROBLEMS
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
y u t nk i was HOSPITALISED LAST YR
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
so now you say you have problems. I though you said the problem is I"M TOO BUSY?
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
PLS DUN TALK
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
u gonna make me feel UPSET
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
OK
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
I ADMIT IT
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
I'VE GOT SOME DISORDER IN MY HEAD
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
i see specialist
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
drink all sorts of medicines
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
SOMETIMES COME 2 A POINT WER I JUZ WANNA DIE DIE DIE
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
if i had a CHOICE
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
I'D ASK GOD 2 TAKE M LIFE DIS VERY SECOND
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
pls
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
WHY live when u r HURT all time
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
bet u dun all THESE
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
y dun u go 2 my blog
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
i don't blog.
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
u can read
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
and i dun like blog
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
DERZ MORE 2 ME
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
THAN MEETS THE EYE
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
blogs tell others what you want others to think about you, not the real truth. I think blogs are deceitful.
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
n why i still wanna live
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
JESUS IS THE REASON
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
that's why i dun blog
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
MINE'S NOT LIKE THEIRS
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
im nt HYPOCRITICAL
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
IM NT OTHERS
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
Grace, i think your problem is that you think you are "TOO SPECIAL:.
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
IM ANDREA GRACE CHANDRA, t OTHERS
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
i dun wanna TALK
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
BYE
Careen_Keep Believing... says:
you started first.
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
I GOTTA BLOCK U 4 NOW
aishiteru ; jia en <3>
SRY
``lost for words``
9:51:00 AM
stop and think;
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
WELCOME TO MY LIFE by SIMPLE PLAN
2DAY IM SO VERY NOT MYSELF.
STOP SCREWING ME UP LAH IDIOTIC JERKS!
GET OUTTA MY SIGHT PLS!
F*** OFF LA!
NOBODY ASK U COME HERE OKAY!
I SAY: SCRAM!!!!!!!!
DUN BUG ME!
OR YOU'LL BE SORRY!
DUN FEEL LIKE BLOGGING CAN?????
THIS DAY IS THE WORST DAY IN MY 17 YRS OF LIVING!!!
THOSE NOT HAPPY BY ALL MEANS LEAVE!
I'M GONNA COMPLAIN COMPLAIN HERE!!!!
HARSH HURTFUL WORDS AHEAD!
PLS DONT GO ON IF U TINK U CANT FACE IT!
READY???
i unhappy!
CUPCAKE, WAD DA HELL???
U R D SAME LIKE OTHER F***ING BOYS!
I TELL U THIS OUT LOUD AND ANNOUNCE:
I JILT YOU THIS VERY SECOND!
PLS! U BETRAY MY TRUST!
THATZ SUMTG I REALLY CANT 4GIVE!!
I THOT U KNOW ME VERY WELL???
WHY?CUPCAKE,WHY????
I WISH I WANNA CONTINUE
BUT IF THIS CONTINUES, EITHER OF US WILL BE HURT SOONER OR LATER.
PLS, UNDERSTAND.
I LEAVE U BECOZ I LOVE U!
I DUN WAN US 2 GET HURT.
THIS IS MY FINAL DECISION.
WE'LL BE HAPPIER.
WE SHALL GO OUR OWN WAYS.
THIS IS HARD FOR YOU.
BUT ITZ HARD 4 ME TOO.
IT TOOK ME ALL DAY THINKING ABOUT OUR FUTURE.
I FEEL THIS IS D ONLY WAY OUT
U BETRAYED ME!
U KNOW WAD U DID!
I DUN HAVE TO TELL YA!
bye bye cupcakes.
from 22.11.03 to 12.07.05
`` she says bye for the last time to her lover ``
2:54:00 AM
stop and think;
Sunday, July 10, 2005
my mood is a yoyo today.
UP DOWN UP DOWN UP DOWN UP
you'll know why slowly..
i lurve keeping people in SUSPENSE!
hurhur.. :D
DARK color - down. LIGHT color - up.
kinda stable when i'm outside d house..
but when i cudnt get a *beep* taxi, i stood outside my condo like some dumb gal.
plus plus my muscles went crazy wrong time..
THANKS VERY MUCH!
so being a smart being, i called a cab!
like HELLO!!!!
i'm not AS STUPID AS YOU THINK OK!!!
ehemm..chill chill..
see wad i mean???
hmmm.. pretty ok here..
no signs of UNSTABLENESS.
safe to be approached.
continue journey to yishun by mrt.
zzz on the journey
totally go ballistic!
meet my friends mah..
not just FRIENDS.
MY FAMILY IN CHRIST (:
so of coz uber mad lah!
if u were me you'll know...
still ecstatically happy happy..
from cgm till it ends.
got food provided!!!
*eyes go cringx*
well, this is the part wer i go very UN-ME
NORMAL ME never object FREE FOOD.
BUT i did!
NOT ME.
i seem to be ok on the way to church.
act so completely normal.
VERY STABLE.
in church also normal.
the ABNORMAL part comes later
service was SUPERBLY GREAT!
sort of one of THE BEST SERVICES!
my last and best service on 2005
i dunno when i can experience such services elsewhere.
CITY HARVEST CHURCH IS THE BEST CHURCH!
i can be anywer on d world but i can only can say THIS IS MY ONLY CHURCH GLOBALLY!
see, i luv my church INSIDE OUT (:
NOTHING CAN MAKE ME DENY THIS!
EVEN IF IT COSTS MY LIFE.
muscle aches acting again
ppl prayed and i have FAITH I'D BEEN HEALED!
of coz i heal!
who's MY GOD?
THE ONE AND ONLY.
THE BEGINNING AND THE END.
amen- (:
i start to be blue.
i feel quite buai song here.
blame the rain!
it affects my MOOD
i feel so pissed when i cant open my new umbrella.
JUZ BECOZ I CANT OPEN IT
getting worse n worser as you scroll down
READY?
i ask WILLEY aka LILLEY buy food 4 mi since i quite uncomfortable.
i sit wif my family loh.
ELAINE n me are d only gals der
den she order drink for ppl liddat
*el: future job waitress?or u very pro at dis thing?*
dun angry, itz juz MY THOUGHT!
haiz..he buy wrong thing..
but im cool with it!
d diff is juz fried and unfried noodles
so? who's complaining?
after buy food i DONT eat it
NORMAL ME gobbles the food once its served, NOT STARING AT IT!
i admit i was WEIRD
what's worse, i HARDLY touched the food.
bugger!!!
WORST!
MOST UN-ME EXPERIENCE
ALL IN CAPS & BOLD
EVERYTHING SEEMS TO FALL APART HERE
I ASKED CLEMENT DA PAO FOR MY FOOD SINCE I DUN WANNA WASTE MY $
SO I ASKED D GALS TAKE PIX
I ASKED CARMEN AKA ALYCIA TO DO IT
BUT SHE NICELY REJECTED ME
REASON BEING:
SHE'S NOT CHIO, NO MAKE UPS
TRUE! BUT BEING SUCH A BUMMER
I GOT MAD AT HER DEN I CRY.
PLS, I PISS PPL OFF, I MYSELF CRY
[NO COMMENTS HERE. PLS GIVE SOME OK.
WONT BE OFFENDED
BUT I DONT PROMISE I WONT
SEE THE COMMENTS 1ST]
CONT'D..
SO I TURN MY FACE AWAY FROM CARMZ
I DUNNO HOW SHE FEELS.
*carmz:sry dear, i dun mean 2 hurt u..as i said i was UN-ME..4giv me pls..*
FEEL BUAI SONG, I ASK WEEFU 'I-ZELL' 2 TELL CARMZ:
ASK HER DUN TALK NOW OR I GET MORE MAD.
WAH! THAT'S SO MEAN MEAN MEAN PLS!!!
SO MUZ HAVE MESSENGER NOW???
I WAS TOTALLY LOST THEN..
BUT I TOOK OUT word of God AND READ IT
*D ONLY [ME]*
I KNOW THAT THIS IS JUST A TEST FROM GOD
SO I WUN GIV DEVIL ANYMORE SMILES
I TURN HIS GRIN INTO TEARS
TRUE!
I WAS COOLED DOWN WHEN I READ THIS:
Psm 103:8
I THINK.
BTW,IT WORKS!
A BATTLE IS WON!
A RISE IN FAITH GAINED!
A FRIENDSHIP IS SAVED!
WHEN A DOUBLE-EDGED SWORD IS USED!
thank Him.
so i tell carmz im not angry anymore
im glad i've a friend like carmz!
if i were her, i would walk away pls!
so patient to face such an unstable fren like me (:
3 cheers to carmz!
*carmz: *head swells* wah! sum1 hapi horz!*
of coz d others [lilley,i-zell,ZQ,clementi,cat]
sure are SUPER PISSED OFF alr!
i juz can sense it.
man, i feel very very very lucky to have dis kind of frens ok!!!
face it,can u behave like THEM with the above situation???g
I DOUBT IT
*all: wah! u guys sure grin eye to eye yeah!*
feel beta!
see change color!
quite stable from coffee shop to mrt
welcome,UN-ME.
btw i saw sum1 STALKING me!
im not yet a SUPERSTAR ppl stalk liao
i dinno how IF I REALLY AM A SUPERSTAR!!!
hahaha =D
quite angry angry..
i thot el n jiahui/jia/i-lynne
go without me!
hahahaha..
my bad la (:
i walk slow n a bit blur too! =P
btw, d so-called STALKER go wimme 2 take train!
hahas. FUNNY! GOING WITH SOME STALKER...
back,i saw agnes/angel/peishan n company up der..
duno y call her ANGEL all d time lei! (:
btw,i misbehave in mrt.
angry at ppl 4 no OBVIOUS reason!
agnes nvr see mi wen i call her i upset le.
den wen my gang comes, i go their place & again CRY
haiz.. my fren muz have a lot of patience to face me manz!!!
pity them.
so all r fine in d end.
u ask me?
WAD DA HELL IS WRONG WITH GRACE???
ME:
eh, i girl lei!i got it! if u know wad i mean..
had a happy ending (:
7:21:00 PM
stop and think;
Saturday, July 09, 2005
wooo.. 2day whole day walk walk walk walk.. how not tired?
my legs need some massaging from an expert massager..
now where's SHE when i need HER???
tired tired leggies..
here's wad i did 2day..
10.45: get outta d house.
MY CRAZY MAID THINKS SHE'S D BOSS AND ASKS ME TO FOLLOW HER!
mad arh she! shout chout in d lift like some xiao car bo..
attention seeker. pls la ppl tink u gila ok!
i left her go ownself.lost also i dun care.lika sai pls!
so i was so *beep* up i reported her rudeness..
my aunt says she'll talk 2 her.
i wonder if it's a TALK TALK or TALK SCOLD.
who cares? not my prob.
she started it ok!
den i go bus stop. juz in time 2 catch bus no 7!
hehes.. go upper deck lorhs as usual..
den i met dis PROUD JUNIOR of mine in d bus.
she's so UGGGGHHH!!!
if she doesnt knoe me i can forgiv her..
BUT THIS ONE ACTS LIKE SHE DOES NOT KNOW ME AT ALL!!!
some *beep* junior..
lucky i met SOMEONE der (:
he turns my :( into :) !
hahas.. i love him can?
my baby cupcake!
im yr cutie pie (:
lurve lurve <3<3<3
i shop and he's der with me. i told him 2 wait but he insists 2 go.
oh wells. cupcake cares 4 me okiez (:
not only dat, he offers carrying my shopping bags!!!
he wanna carry my handbag but uh-uh! dis one is a complete NO-NO!
later ppl tink he gay..
woah.. where can u find MR NICE GUY like cupcake???
luph me so muchie until dun care himself..
CUPCAKE, PIE LOVES YOU!!!
okays.. i hav 2 part frm cupcake :(
gotta see mrs low by then..
whoa! i dun go 4 tuition lo!
hahahaaha..
my tuition cliques: nha mai, nha chi, yu shuang & nabilla were on their books..
poor things.. i cant be HAPPY when my frenz suffer and i enjoy..
i ate my leftover McD food: fries n fish dips
den my itchy hands take chris' so called snakes n start takin pix as usual!
den i go 2 mmm.. whose room???
whoever it belongs to i go in n find chris hiding..
en found him.. she's pretty bz man!
stacks of papers pile up like mt everest!
chris takes some cute pix wimme..
chris is soooo cute!
but he looks so alike my bro..
behaviour n d look!!!
Jo's shock ok wen he saw his so called evolutional twin (:
cute chris looks simply cute on d cam!
do funny funny things with his toys.
suicide den dunno wad la..
i adore you!
PS: CUPCAKE U R STILL MY #1!!!
she is loved and in love
9:19:00 PM
stop and think;
Friday, July 08, 2005
hmmm.. 2day is slightly beta than yesterday's (:
i've many reasons to show you.
#1. not a boring day! in fact itz FUN!
#2. a visit to SMSS was d right thing 2 do! i get 2 c my frens n hav fun too!
#3. evryone so happy 2 c mi (: i feel like a SUPERSTAR! (dream come true)
#4. get 2 pass AH CHUA without making a contact! (big achievement)
#5. stay late in skul doesnt seem bad with frenz surrounding you (:
#6. shop to heeren after skul! (my all time fave activity)
#7. shopping lonely can b FUN actually. (feel free n no one bothers you)
#8. i feel LOVE surrounds me. (be it from ppl ard mi n God)
#9. i feel so good i 4get i'm suffering frm BOREDOM.
#10. YOU ppl made me smile (: [smss ppl duh!]
see after being apart from so long i dun 4get u guys!
in fact this is true..
ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROWS FONDER
agree?
thanks to those who had brighten my grey days
kudos, you did a GREAT job (:
this might seem nuttin 2 u but it means lots to me.
once again, ARIGATO.
she bows and leaves. applauses are heard.
9:09:00 PM
stop and think;
Thursday, July 07, 2005
itz just another boring day with another boring routine.. wake up, eat, brush teeth, play, watch tv.. SLACK is the right word 2 describe my activities..
i tell u, d whole day sit in front of compie n stare stare stare at the same screen...
very wu liao i tell u! siansation dawned upon me..
u wanna help? sure.
ASK ME OUT LA!!!
like duh..
QUICK! before i die of boredom..
boredom is the fastest killer.
got antidote?
another unproductive day of andreagracechandra
10:33:00 PM
stop and think;
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
i slept 3 hrs again.. 12+ to 3+.. wadz wrong ah? i dunno.. after go toilet cant slp.. after wake go straight to dear dear compie (: luv u so much compie! cant live without u.. so drama =p but seriously, i really cant live without compie n handphie!
i drank fruit juice: carrot + watermelon. nice la. thats my breakfast. muz lose weight! jiayou grace, you can do it! FATS, GO AWAY! cant munch munch anymore. mus stop. its hard but i've gotta do it! if OLINDA can do it, so can i (: she cheats lor, go slimming programme... bu i dun blame he coz she bz n is an artist. she get paid instead of paying!
oh yeah! yday i watched sly ate with fiona xie!!! at the tv.. they look as if they're dating than hosting a show can. that fiona kept ogling sly rather than focusing on the food.. fiona fiona.. we all know u like him (: they ate so scary! 2 ppl ordered many many plates of food! abt 10 liddat.. all fattening n unhealthy ones sum more.. those two sure have blackholes in da tummy.. not enuf, muz go order 2-3 times! tsk tsk.. fiona so greedy siah! sly sais,"this girl really knows how to eat!", "i'm not like you, eat so much one..". LOL! sly quite notty when's he's young. make hole in d fence juz 2 escape from skul 2 buy his fave food! crazy.. no matter wad u do, we'll always love you sly..
hit d pool at 4.30pm. 1 hour down der with Jo. i was like staying in kiddie pool coz itz like a jacuzzi 2 me! haha.. but den i was bored so i SPLASH! scared Jo with d yellow thingy! he thot something exploded coz it sounded like *POW!* damn farnie.. shud see his stupid face (: i know, i know.. MEAN MEAN SISTER!
tired arh! long long post..
9:37:00 PM
stop and think;
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
today nuttin much happening.. dun go outta d house AT ALL. i gud ger mah.. naw! coz all i did was using com, watch tv n play NFS 2 (: i hope jess can go out wimme tml.. i slept at 3am, woke up 6am.. muz slp early 2nite! that, of coz, depends on yr definition of EARLY. i wrote a short story called "the little red shoe". i'll post it nex tym so stay tuned! another thing tt realli irks me is yasuko's blog! mind you, her BLOG, NOT HER. i put d tag code but her blog very notty dun wan to cooperate wimme! try so many times also cant.. bad bad blog!
9:42:00 PM
stop and think;